I have to admit it when I wasn't giving my all and I have not done my best. Got to take it as a lesson learnt and remember not to make the sane mistake. Haven't prepared well enough for this first time test with the cheat sheet. Now I know, it's not about how much you can cram into the paper, it's more like you know your stuff or you don't.

Major mistake: the cheat sheet doesn't necessary help you.

Must work doubly hard for the economics test on Thursday.

Am happy to have some Christmas plans this year. Am keeping off town this time, no crowds :) glad to be visiting a new place this time ;)

Had eaten six slices of bread since this morning. The last sandwich is still in my bag. Wondering if it shall be added into tomorrow's quota when I pack lunch to the library? Hmmm...

最近不知道为什么觉得世间上的好人似乎越来越少

Things going to get busier. It seems that there are more deadlines due soon, more work to be done. Tuition classes resuming gradually! It suddenly seems like I'm not that at ease when there's more time. Instead of studying harder at this opportunity when I have more time, I am actually just dazing away some times?

Am afraid of times when I seems free, I tend to... be too relaxed.

Have lots of crazy thinking lately. After effects of having too much time, no?


我转身我后退　竟然害怕面对

Birthday or an investment?

I don't know how many of my friends out there are seeing this but honestly, since I have written this then I wouldn't quite care how many people I am going to offend.

Have been receiving invitations from friends - now I'm not even sure of this vocab's real definition. People that you haven't been quite in touch with are now all happy enough to see me at their birthday party. I am indeed skeptical about my presence if it would really make a difference to the party itself or was it all about the birthday gift that I was going to bring along?

One more person, probably means more present. What an investment!

A sharing of my bad life episode is not an opportunity for you to show off how much your children are worth nor how much money you've dumped in for them. This exchange is not meant to comfort you of how well your children are doing but to remind you that your children are somehow insensible because the tens of thousands of investments could yield you a seat in SIM or some other private insitituitions too. Landing a place in the local colleges certainly does not warrant happiness in you or your children in the future.

I hope your hard work will yield some high returns in the future. High calibre kids can be ill brats as well. Look at the cases of high flying professionals fighting in courts over their parents' assets? Perhaps your children won't be the same but who knows?

With words like this, I felt spurred and motivated, meaning I want to prove that I am capable of producing even better results than I already am. But I'm sorry to say that maybe you are saying this because subconsciously you are admitting to the fact that you do not have a daughter who is as capable and sensible as me, other than in terms of my previous academic results a couple of years back.

I believe in 'Each to it's own'. Although we are not going to have a lot of college drop-outs like Bill Gates who managed to create Microsoft, and of course we will not have many Sim Wong Hoo in Singapore, I'm more than positive to know that I am going to be someone of worth with years down the road. I am not going to be that miserable little executive sitting behind that monitor screen, that I can assure you.

I am certain about what kind of a person are you and would certainly build up the invisible wall from now on. I still respect you out if courteousy because you are someone who is more senior to me in age but I may be disappointing you that I am not respecting you deep down from my heart. I am not your typical plus innocent 20 year old who lives next door who believes that this world is nice, colorful and beautiful. I have seen a fair bit of what I shouldn't have seen and have braved through what someone who is of comparable age haven't had gone through.

I will watch my words while I keep my eyes open to see what comes. You're not a foe but definitely not a friend, my dear colleague. May you, the mother of three lead a better life from now on.

Making plans

Although I'm not even able to have a full week of term break, unlike some of my friends who probably ends their exams tomorrow, I'm still pretty excited for the few days before my new term starts on the 8th, after my last paper that ends on 1 November. Just ended my very first paper today with a breeze, happy much!

Am thinking of savoring good food during my one month break without my tuitions in November now. Feel like having weekday brunch at some places out of the way again, but not forty hands this time! Hopefully can go explore duxton hill once more and Robertson Quay - the bento shop looks wonderful, yum yum!

Well, the next term seems a little dull with a loss of couple of close friends, but guess it seems to be an ideal time for a more disciplined study time table for myself during the weekdays after class from now onwards. Praying hard for a decent time table! No evening classes please!

I don't understand why can't we just face it an admit it.

Tangible or intangible goods, we pay a price for it. You get what you had paid for, most of the time, quality and price will be in equal proportion. Although I have to say that sometimes, there are times where the price and your efforts doesn't pay off.

Maybe I am just a lucky girl since the very beginning. The wron steps in life seems to become right after all. I don't exactly had to pretend to possess certain things, as in true facts, I really have them. I don't need to chase after certain dreams, because deep down I am really working hard for them.

At times I am actually worried about life after graduation. What comes when I am stepping into a new phase of life? Though I'm anticipating for the time when life should be the merriest, where one could embrace love, money and freedom - I'm negative about uncertainties in the future. When I lose this balance that I'm enjoying now, will I lose it all?

Gotta tell myself that sometimes, just stay contented as the lucky girl that I am now and stop thinking too far ahead. Who knows I may not live till tomorrow?

Keeping my cool

Yes, that's what I have been trying to do lately. I am very much like a very grumpy person now. The tension doesn't quite get release out of the system, or rather don't have an outlet to go to. I'm desperately pressed for time, preparation for my presentations and the assignments are all due near the same period of time. Oh, and tests too... To top it off, it's the kids CA2 period now so there's no way I could squeeze out time from there. Making do with less tIme for sleeping, more trips down at LKC and a very tired body.

Well, what spoils the mood even more is the nonsense that I had at work. Sometimes I don't know am I just plain too serious for my own good. Joke or not, intentional or unintentional, I can't really distinguish the difference. Perhaps it's me - a suspicious woman who likes to exaggerate things and make life difficult for myself so I can't have anyone to blame, can I?

Got to be honest, sometimes I would like to hear some words of encouragement from my family and not voices of disapproval or criticism about me not having my priorities right. Aren't these people supposed to be supportive? I have no complains about having my dinner only at supper time with nothing else but probably the left overs that you guys finished. I never utter a word or attempted to stretch out my hand and ask for money when I had to pay that silly telephone bill that wasn't suppose to be my business. I needed that bit of understanding, but instead you guys just brush it off with words that I have interpreted to be saying that I was insensible.

I didn't want to spell it out but if you always had to ask why am I working so late and hard while I'm supposed to spend my time studying - it's because money and studies are equally important to me

In times, I just had to stay away from this bullshit.

Back to school. Had to get back to the busy schedule and prepare myself for more days stuck at the national library with lots of reports due in three weeks time. Hope it will be very soon that I can meet BBF when she starts school at the end of august since she will be only three storey away then ;)

Planned to be at LKC at Wednesday to do up management and marketing

Had a meet up with some primary school mates last Saturday. I think it's a part of growing up when you see people mature, and change. Of course at the same time, be a little out of your expectation. I am fearful of having dead air but well, it went on pretty alright that night.

"See you next year"

Had flown to Guangzhou before school started. Had enjoyed myself but I believed it would have been a much better trip if possible. Was physically satisfied with lots of good food (check out the facebook album, hehe)

Was pretty well emotionally satisfied too.

People may not be able to understand like what is there to see in china? Well I am a very scenery person. I like the views of nature so hills and flowers are kind of great for me. The museums are great, learnt a lot more about Dr. Sun Yet San. Not like you can't search for information of him online but it's just different.

The trip down to Teochew and Shantou was fabulous because being a true blue teochew personally, I totally love the atmosphere when everyone else around you spoke that native language that you know since three years old! And when you converse with the people, you truly felt like one of them and honestly, you felt really close to home at heart.

I know that really sounded alienic but true, I felt like I was home. Not a single inch like a foreigner. 真的有那种认祖归总，落叶归根的感觉。

I'm down with sore throat and running nose, here comes the side effects of my influenza vaccination. Good thing that it's the last day of work today and probably am able to get some rest next week.

Hopefully can get to sing songs before my trip or before school starts. Am already craving for good food already, BBF. Please get better and we can go touring around Singapore again. Should explore the east soon!

I can feel the excitement now, finally...

Couldn't resist the temptation and bought it. Let's say it's an early Christmas present to myself. Hmm, I'll reserve the slot for something major for the 21st ;)

Study week - study, tuition, watch tv, study, sleep

Couldn't sleep till more than 9am because there's a little human alarm clock making noise. Am going to make a trip to the bank and the supermarket soon, don't I just sound like a housewife?

Am hungry also. Don't know what to eat for brunch

They tell me, don't think about it

I have to say, sometimes certain things are just not worth it to be occupied that part of your limited brain cells

I hope it's just hormonal for me to get really snappy these days. My emotional level is at the orange zone. I don't always want to respond to anyone with sarcasm. Neither do I want to be always engaging in conversation where I either talk about work or complain about things under the sun

Visited my aunt today during my short free time after class today as we were released earlier. She reminded me of something that my late grandmother used to say

When we are alive, we complain. We complain about how hard we got to work to earn money, how hard our lives are. But when we are dead, there's nothing left. Life is so short so why waste time complaining and making your lives difficult and upsetting?

How time flies.

Like I've always told myself that there's a special part of your memory, regardless of whether are they good or bad things, those memories are never meant to be forgotten.

It could be your first kiss, the faces of your late grandparents, happy occasions that you'd spent with your high school classmates, the time where you see a beautiful rainbow or even how your first love broke your heart...

Very randomly, I get reminded of incidents that happened to me before. Good or bad alike, they will bring on a silly smile on my face.

I think this is a process of growing up. How your mind matures and how the behaviors change.

I might not have many life experiences and I'm not here to offer anyone any word of advice. But somehow now, I truly understands that life is about making the right decisions where you try your best to not disappoint those who love you. Life is living it to the fullest happily regardless of its duration.

The better things in life

One's needs and desire is unlimited and they never seem enough. There is no way to put an end to this and it makes us keep wanting more. People are just this silly creature. To think about it, some time talking about self fulfillment and being contented seem like bullshit.

Had a talk with a colleague on the way back home tonight. And I seriously don't like times when people tells me that they are really envious of me. Well, it's the same idea as the grass is always greener on the other side. What people may see of me is the shine of an end product. What lies beneath when it's all raw and bare? I'm not trying to sound noble or impressive but I'm just saying that's human nature where they seem blind to the process that leads to an outcome.

Hard work is transparent. It's normal when people don't appreciate the effort.

Am anticipating a good weekend ahead :)

Got to fully enjoy myself before the pace for both tuition and school picks up again. The mid year exams for the kids are coming and I've already gotten request to add additional slots. So dear friends whom I'm meeting this weekend are probably the last ones who see me before I do the MIA thing again.

Got to wave goodbye to my Saturdays and Friday nights as well got the upcoming two weeks or so, I guess?

Had a relaxing day today catching up on the serial drama. Haven't had the time to pack the table and the room because I've been lazing around watching the tv. Gotta squeeze some time for that soon.

Yearning to watch a movie too. The last film I watched was No Strings Attached by Natalie Portman and Aston Kutcher. Don't even know what's up on the screen lately anyway.

Shall drag myself to jurong point to get the daily necessities. Had been delaying due to the lack of time. I've cleaned out the convenience food. Don't even have a packet of potato chips at home. How sad is that...

As humans, we like to think about the unthinkable

It has become a habit of me to be afraid of death recently. Like I often have this thought before I go to bed. Seems like far away for me but who knows when will be my turn? You see people depart, wondered where they went to eventually? Is there an after life? Heaven, hell or just plain wandering around in the thin air? How scaring, you may be able to see your dead body, or will you meet people who are dead long time ago?

Is dying just like sleeping, losing consciousness then you'll never wake up? I wish it was that plain simple. I think that won't be that bad. I wonder what I'm doing and what's that last memory before my last breath...

It has been a pain to wake up in the morning lately. Hope these two painful weeks can pass very quickly. Nearly two more assignments to complete and after 25th, I'll be able to take a short break. Can already imagine myself cooping myself in the room and watch tv :) yay, the television is such a brilliant invention! Like it really open up the world. You can travel all round in the world in a split second, no?

Have been eating out alone more often these days. I used to really dislike the idea of sitting alone and eat. I've always felt like the other people will be looking at you weirdly, like why is this person so lonely an pathetic? I would make myself to munch a bun as I walk instead of sitting down. But recently, I finally came to this conclusion of why should I make my precious stomach suffer because of the silly glances which people may cast on me?

I'm paying money to buy the food, so I definitely deserve the seat. For sure, I'm better those people who hog to four seats when there's only one of them dining right? I will choose tables with two seats.

Perhaps its all because my life has been very mundane lately and plus the fact that I've been traveling a lot in public transport lately that my bad habit of talking with my imaginary friend has became more frequent. I have this habit of imagining conversations with myself. Answering my own silly questions and asking my imaginary friend stuff that I probably won't tell real people. I have this little problem of talking to myself when I'm alone in the house, on the train or bus..

No, I don't think this is mental. I just felt this is another method to unwind and let out some frustrations. Perhaps this is a little secret side of me that I don't want to let people see. The conversation topic is silly, something out of the world.

Talking about Technology

Am really fed up over the fact that when I need the school' portal urgently, it has to break down. Now I cannot submit my stuff and to make it worse, it isn't my local lecturer who is marking my work but that angmoh guy at Perth. Totally awesome, I am all prepared to wave goodbye to another 4 percent off BIS100, last week's 4% most probably gone because absent minded me forget to hand the thing in by Friday 11.55pm. This week's screwed up all because of the damn system. No wonder people fail BIS100 again and again, maybe it wasn't their fault.

My nose's blocked like hell. I'm breathing like a fish. My voice sounds pathetically sexy, I don't know how am I going to teach tomorrow.

Was wondering if I should write this on the whiteboard tomorrow:

"Class, please cooperate with me because I can't yell at you. Do your work quietly and I'm sure you'll be rewarded."

Like my bunch of monkeys care about rewards huh...

My neck hurts and I felt tired to the max. I haven't marked the worksheets for tomorrow, better log off and do them now, ciao!

People who are loud and fierce are not necessarily bad

Recent events had set me to realize that usually those people who starts to flare up or raise their voice easily are usually the ones who doesn't harm you to the extreme. Because once they get the issue of out their system in this manner, they forget all about it.

In fact, those really nice people, like overly temperless are quite scary. Like they have really high EQ, and they can really conceal their emotions really well. You never know when these people are angry with you, you can't really know when they are going to plot something against you or turn against your back.

I feel threatened when I meet people of the latter. How would you feel when you're being all truly truthful and the party you're facing is only treating you with a facade of lies with a big fat smile on the face? You can't slap her right across because it only shows that you're the one being unreasonable as everyone deems her as Little Miss Super Nice. You can't hurt Little Miss Super Nice, can you?

It's just like making very beautiful looking cupcakes but inside, it just taste bad. What a deception.

I think the times of me being stuck at the national library typing away will stop for next weekend for the moment. If you haven't been to the higher floors where the Lee Kong Chian Reference Library is, just want to share with you that it's a really condusive place to study or do your work only provided that you're the type of the people who needs complete silence when you're focusing. Those of you who likes studying alone should give it a try. You don't need to quite snatch for a plug, unlike at elsewhere (e.g. I've tried the open area in front of shaw where the McCafe was, and Starbucks of course - both places need you to patronize them of course) as there are plenty to go around. You get the air con which is rather cooling especially in the late evenings, big sized tables - which was especially great for me because I'm a very messy person as I often have notes thrown all over the table and your bonus will be all the books that you can use as resources. As they are reference materials, they will never be on loan out of the library and librarians there are very efficient, where books are very easily found because they are constantly arranging the books!

One other thing is that they have really nice view from there. If you find a nice spot to sit, you literally sit facing the Singapore Flyer and have a bird eye view of the suntec city and bugis area. Shall share some photos with you guys on facebook.

Am able to have a little bit of fun after Monday. Really looking forward to some roaming around town to shop for birthday present :)

I wish I could see such beautiful skies leisurely once again.

Sometimes, I'm really awed by how I could survive busy and hectic weeks again and again. The routine goes on like nobody business and how I could squeeze out time to juggle work, school and entertainment (TV).

Like most of my friends know, I was never a late sleeper in the past and I hardly burnt any midnight oil before examinations and test. I would, in another words, surrender and go to sleep. But these days, I don't remember any days where I get to sleep before midnight.

Studies say that you tired out your liver if you don't sleep from 11pm to 2 am. With this, I think my liver has been more or less burnt out. But get a little bit more realistic, isn't most of the young people awake at this time?

On a more serious note. The election's coming and the only regret I have is why I'm not 21 yet. You know how much I yearn to cast my one sacred vote?! I must wait for another five years and it could be that I don't get to vote because it may be a walk over then. It was a golden opportunity that I could have to make that little difference yet I missed it by 7 days. Imagine I was born in 31 Dec 1990, then it will be perfect ;P

Was watching the travel programme and was thinking of visiting Bali. Then news came tonight that the terrorists were planning to bomb Bali or something. How timely...

Am keeping my Hong Kong plan this July on hold first, because Mum thinks that the world's not getting that peaceful now, so better stay close to home. Or rather - stay at home...

Although I'm not a Show Luo fan, but this song has been on my replay recently. Found the lyrics really meaningful, which actually got me to wonder whether are people feeling this way when they eventually walked out of a relationship?

Let's all forget about the incident

Had been eating really nice food to make up for the really bad mood since yesterday afternoon. First, had Dark Mocha Frappacino from Starbucks to cheer myself up a little. Long time since I treated myself to a nice cup of coffee at one of my favorite hangout. But got to admit that the longer I sat by myself, the more hollow I actually felt. Still, it was a good chance for me to enjoy some peace and quiet

Dined at the Prima revolving restaurant yesterday night. Was a really great experience with the view. Even the toilet has really nice view - pretty toilets ;) nice view, great food and the night's really well spent with family. Like the time when everyone can sit at the dinner table, eat and make conversations happily.

Gonna have dinner tonight with my aunties for birthday celebration. Heehee, foodie food ;)

Once in a while, I think I need some quiet time like this where I just lie on my bed in complete darkness, put on my headphone and listen to some music. No, this is not being emo - too old for this term, don't you think? Am enjoying this time when the songs don't serve as a background noise, like when you plug in your music player when you're on the streets. Only at time like this, when you will really focus on listening to the lyrics and pay attention to that little pitch difference. And yes, I have a pretty good sound system on my headset.

I've been spending my holidays sleeping, lying in bed and watching television all day long. Nothing much other being quite a lazy bum actually.

I have been working on my little secret project. Almost done now hehehe.

Ok, want to tell BBF to have a safe trip and have tons of fun traveling. Take more photos and come back share with me ;)

Sorry, neither am I the kind who can conceal my emotions well

At the very least, I try my very best not to flare up in front of certain people. Like Lisa said, I'm not in the position to say anything. For the sake of the people that I love, I did not choose to keep my mouth shut, because I did not have a choice, I had to keep quiet. That is my way of showing you respect and politeness. Do not start expecting me to behave as though nothing is happening with a big fat smile on my face. Well, because let's face it, I can't.

Silence is golden, silence means that one is tolerating, accommodating and compromising. But that doesn't mean that this is necessarily agreeing with what that is being placed forth. Sometimes, giving in to ridiculous demands blindly is stupid. Some people don't think before they speak, but I don't see the point to stoop down to your level and meet your requirements when they simply do not make any sense.

If you want to go things your way, go ahead and stop trying to change other people. Sometimes, this just won't work. Want to talk about standardisation, then go on and get a machine for replacement, but bother getting human help? Switch to a robot, because it is pretty stupid. It doesn't fight back or talk back, it will listen to your orders totally.

Let's put the topic of who's right and who's wrong aside, because such questions never reach an answer in a million years. Most of the time, both sides are wrong in some ways. What really bothers me is that some people don't even think that there is a problem with themselves. Throwing their weight around makes me despise them. Can't they even see what is going on or the good things that people has done for them? Human magnify flaws and they find fault, they never want to see or acknowledge the good things around them, isn't this trying to make lives difficult for themselves?

People, let's be on our toes. Start trying to be a little more sensitive but not overly sensitive to the extent of being paranoid. Show a little kindness and courtesy to people around you. Isn't this what Singapore and that cute little Singa lion tried to inculcate in all fellow Singaporeans years back?

There's like plenty of things on my mind. I need some inner peace and I don't know where to seek them. I need some time on my own to sort things out with myself again. I planned to enjoy this entire week, wanted to fill the days up with lots of fun and laughter but I think its going to be a failed mission.

Stop and stare

I don't know when will this little tinge of regret eventually leave me. Seeing certain things that had that association still have the power to set me thinking and I will be still wondering about that many uncertainties that never bother to take place. I've never been a ruthless person but there will certain times where I have to get myself to know when I have to take big steps and look away.

Watched Black Swan today. When I spent the first ten or so minutes watching the movie alone, I had this thought that I may actually try watching a film on my own especially when the theatre was pretty empty on a Thursday afternoon like this. probable that I have to overcome the sight of the person casting me pathetic glares when I buy a single ticket.

By the way, Enna came in later and she was etching half of the movie with her hands covering her face. Don't know if we are watching horror or not.


Back to the movie. It was quite meaningful to me, because I actually had a younger cousin who is slightly mental because she wants everything to be perfect and couldn't quite deal with stress. And after seeing watching the show, the more I feel that she should learn how to relax and not be so tensed up or else she may worsen and become like the lead. Somehow I could relate to the movie I guess. Which brings to my point being a far too perfectionist is a pain sometimes. Like in the end, you only end up hurting no one but probably yourself.

Alright exams over, am gonna enjoy myself fully in my break. First up, the activity for today is to sleep and watch tv, yay!

Imbalance

There will be times when I feel like this, where you feel a little upset about certain results that happens as a consquence of my own incapabilities. Not that I'm very worst off than other people right now, but your heart just felt imbalance. Partly because deep down, I did wanted to be part of the norm, to look good and I wanted that status too.

Hooked on tv. Tried cutting myself down during exams period to sleep more and read more but still failed. Ended up sleeping real late as usual. I have to keep it at the back of my mind and only allowing to watch Tales of Two Cities tonight, then I will dutifully read management notes - the topic that I'm like least confident of.

Okay, am satisfied after dinner. Shall wait for the show to start ;)

He'll love me very much, because I'm special and so different from other girls. It's gonna be all or nothing

I think this is the best thing a friend ever told me to convince me how beautiful love can possibly be. And how much a man, other than my own father, could love me

Somewhat I myself is anticipating to see this man appearing right before me with my own eyes

Am on the way if heading home now. Saw the laser lights but the fireworks didn't appear so it made me rather disappointed. I think the fireworks was a special for the official opening ceremony only. Anyway there were quite a lot of other people who thought that there was going to be a fireworks tonight

Shall shower and catch up with some episodes before heading to bed. Got to sleep more to make up for the loss of sleep yesterday

Plan to read up more materials tomorrow again. Four days of war time will pass before I even know it then I can meet up with BBF to watch a movie, enjoy a dinner and unwind :)

择日不如撞日，撞日也要撞得对

Missed the chance of heading to Taipei this March. Why did my class got to start on 7 March instead of like two weeks later? Say goodbye to my SQ flight and my 3 night stay at some 5-star hotel for free :/ MAJOR OUCH

How's your V day, to my girls who have that special someone. I hope it had been a nice day for you people.

Had a four hour nap this afternoon. I'm waving hello to a sleepless night that is oncoming. Gosh, untimely because I am having my presentation at that 9am class tomorrow morning. Had to wake up real early.

I hate watching Singapore drama serials with my family. They got nothing else to say other than to complain how boring, lame and illogical the whole story gets. Well, I could only say that drama is something that is made to somewhat waste your time isn't it. If you had better things to do, then you wouldn't be actually watching the show right. I remembered some line in Teochew that my late grandmother used to say, "The people who acts in the shows are crazy, the people who watches the shows are fools" Exactly, isn't it?

Dislike aimless Saturday nights

I want to have something to do, possibly a nice plan with nice people, doing nice things that I enjoy doing. Like dining out and catching up. I'm so bored with myself to the extent that I feign sleeping as I didn't want to be caught with hanging out with my new best friend - the television, in my room again. I retreat into isolation because I didn't want to be spotted with a not so white face. What I've heard half an hour ago was literally the pot calling the kettle black

I think I feel the anger within myself building up. I need an outlet to release all of that. Maybe I need to go to my secret hideout for a stroll very soon - like tomorrow perhaps.

I beginning to feel like a grumpy old woman who could not stand the pointless din out there. What's the point of talking when it's not going to hold water. The lack of substance and every thing leads to no solution just bothers me much. A total waste of time.

Keeping quiet seem like the best. You don't pick up a fight and neither will people find fault. Act blur when it's necessary.

I'm almost three weeks through my 7 weeks of 'not so hectic' tuition weeks. Exams gonna be over in about two weeks time so I probably get to enjoy a bit of holidays completely.

V day in one week's time. I don't know if I was gonna date Management or Marketing.

Feeling very tired lately. It was said that if you slept more, you felt even more tired but come on, isn't it the point to sleep more when you really feel tired!? Totally make no sense to me. Got to admit that I've been gulping quite a bit of chicken essence lately.

Am now sitting in the living room typing this while waiting for my maid to be done with plucking the kang kong. Wonder why she's taking so long... Only after she's okay then I can go cook my Campbell soup. Anyway thought I can get my Wednesday and Thursday off this week but too bad, have to work on project tomorrow and there's a bizmath test that I've forgotten all about on Thursday.

Okay, the maid's done. I can go cook now.

Here's a piece of happy news to share. My niece just started calling me gu gu two days back. Happy much :D

Change is the only constant

Want to change, don't want to change? Questions like this brings everyone headache. Change is everywhere, change is basically about everything. Humans are never satisfied, so they change or make changes to things around them, in order to have themselves pleased. Humans are this insatiable and self centred creatures, you and I alike so fret not and don't have to be ashamed.

Finally done with communications report, couldn't be any happier.

I'm getting old. I realised today that I couldn't stand walking around with my heavy bag after teaching 7 hours straight today. I really wanted to be a filial daughter and accompany my parents out and let them enjoy the rest of the day but somehow I ended up really lethargic and grumpy before the it even turned dark.

I think the only activity I could embrace on every Saturday is having dinner, movies and long talks with BBF. Stuff requiring no walking.

You envy people, want a bit of that. You want to have a bite and taste it, but you know you're never gonna reach it or seize it. Those beautiful pictures are only for viewing pleasure, I wonder when will it ever be me.

Yes, the above is meant to be nonsensical. My own viewing pleasure.

The crowded mass everywhere

I actually had a slightly day off than usual today as everyone was in a CNY mood. Coms only took half of the usual time and I didn't even had to stay and watch the other people's presentation during marketing lecture.

Went back to te office to visit the colleagues and ate Yu sheng, am very satisfied. A little disappointment was that I didn't have the chance to trim my hair because it was just way too crowded at the salon.

Back to the point, during the lunar new year, it is simply crowded everywhere! Like super messy, a crazy crowd. I was in watsons buying my nail polish remover and I hardly had a place to stand at the display shelf. I was practically in the store bumping into every other person with my big bag.

People around me are all so festive where I'm here starting to feel moody. Am going to hit vivo city on Thursday and watch a movie and lunch at marche ;) here I come, rosti!

Fruitless

Project with the classmates today was not exactly as productive as expected. The 1500 word marketing essay was only filled up with only 200 words. More time gonna be used next week for another meet up on Wednesday. Say bye to my late morning and hello to the crowded morning train to town.

But on a happier note, I fulfilled my stomach with the big breakfast that it had been craving for ages. Saw the miniatures but I guess I should be saving money and not spending money for a silly toy that I wouldn't be playing.

Love whampoa market because I get to surf the net through the free wifi for free, yay!

Heehee and I love impromptu shopping trips to town :)

As long as you're happy

I think that's a very simple logic yet many people doesn't seem to get it. I guess it's about making decisions for yourself and be accountable for them. To a certain point of time, I no longer want to please people with my sensible choices, I just want to do things that I deem as right.

Deep down, I do know what I want, and why I'm working hard for.

I think it's after watching Love and Other Drugs the other day that got me started on googling about Polaroid. Like a real Polaroid camera and not the fuji instax. I think getting a Polaroid camera is easy and cheap, roughly about 60 bucks you can own one but it's the long term investment after it that rips you off, lol

Am thinking about having a vacation!

About O'levels.

I actually have two younger cousins who actually sat for this exam last year, which probably made me more concern about the release of results today. I'm honestly not that kind of older cousin who goes around poking my nose into other people's business or neither am I all "auntie" being where I start to pick up the phone and start to dial their number to ask how well they did.

But I happen to chance upon a post of a younger junior of my Secondary school on facebook. Shouldn't disclose my former school, in case there are some spies out there or something. I don't want to get caught because of this freedom of speech.

She wrote, "Hi, somebody tell me how *insert the name of my secondary school here* did please

Here goes the funny conversation. Another friend posted, "Owned by some china scholar I heard, 10 A1s"

"again!!! -.- every year like that!"

Just two days back, I bumped into my secondary school teacher at Clarke Quay, he brought two china scholars along for dinner actually. Now I know why my school brings in china scholars without fail. Hmmmm, foreign talent really do you proud.

Let's talk about movie selection today. I was very glad, in fact more than glad, that I actually watched Love and Other Drugs, another movie starred by one of my favorite Hollywood actress Anne Hathaway with my BBF, instead of with my uni classmates. Or else I think they'll start judging me all from a new perspective.

I think nothing goes too wrong if I were to watch any movies with my BFF. If you see two guys watching some cheesy romance flick then you will suspect that they are gays. Honestly this is hugely of what I usually tend to imagine of them. But if it were the two of us, most people will not think of two ladies being lesbians. Girls tend to be at the advantage for things like this, I assure you.

Like I was telling some of my friends, I'm in this all festive mood these days. Like the Christmas and the new year had just passed, here comes my birthday. And soon enough, before you know it, it's gonna be the lunar new year. I feel very occupied these days, with work, school, many assignments and the other things all going on at the same time. To be completely honest, I think I have felt like this before. You really wished that the weekend can be a little longer. This still feels like Friday night to me.

Enlighten me, how does it feel to watch a romance film with a handsome guy, BBF? P.s like the one from you know where. I think it was kinda interesting that we set the same standards.

Having a very busy two weeks ahead with many assignments due. Only slept at 3.30 am, which is approximately 5 hours earlier but I'm now up already. I think my brain subconsciously know that I've got so much work to complete that I could not waste any more time just on sleeping. Hello chicken essence, my favorite friend lately - it's time that I'll drink you again!

Am looking forward to the upcoming plans starting from tomorrow! Seeing people that I've not seen in quite a while, being able to catch up in the midst of good food makes me really happy actually.

Oh and I'm thinking of getting a birthday gift for myself to cheer myself up somemore. Though I'm already pretty happy and satisfied these days but there's no harm to make myself even happier right.

So now, I should climb out of bed and start working on my communications report...

Long new year break was well spent with lots of movies to catch up on. Managed to watch Slumdog Millionaire, I Am Legend, The Game Show and My Best Friend's Girl. Resting a lot and watched a couple of episodes of my hong kong dramas, yay!

Forget about new year resolutions, I never stick to them anyway. Wish everyone's gonna have a blessed and wonderful year ahead.

Kinda busy this week, many things to accomplish.