Keeping my cool

Yes, that's what I have been trying to do lately. I am very much like a very grumpy person now. The tension doesn't quite get release out of the system, or rather don't have an outlet to go to. I'm desperately pressed for time, preparation for my presentations and the assignments are all due near the same period of time. Oh, and tests too... To top it off, it's the kids CA2 period now so there's no way I could squeeze out time from there. Making do with less tIme for sleeping, more trips down at LKC and a very tired body.

Well, what spoils the mood even more is the nonsense that I had at work. Sometimes I don't know am I just plain too serious for my own good. Joke or not, intentional or unintentional, I can't really distinguish the difference. Perhaps it's me - a suspicious woman who likes to exaggerate things and make life difficult for myself so I can't have anyone to blame, can I?

Got to be honest, sometimes I would like to hear some words of encouragement from my family and not voices of disapproval or criticism about me not having my priorities right. Aren't these people supposed to be supportive? I have no complains about having my dinner only at supper time with nothing else but probably the left overs that you guys finished. I never utter a word or attempted to stretch out my hand and ask for money when I had to pay that silly telephone bill that wasn't suppose to be my business. I needed that bit of understanding, but instead you guys just brush it off with words that I have interpreted to be saying that I was insensible.

I didn't want to spell it out but if you always had to ask why am I working so late and hard while I'm supposed to spend my time studying - it's because money and studies are equally important to me

In times, I just had to stay away from this bullshit.