So I'm not sure what I am supposed to expect in 2010.

Am staying put at home on new year's eve, waiting for the fireworks to shoot up from boonlay as I prolly will be able to see it from my place. Hopefully the town area's fireworks could be seen too. Its amazing when you live on the high floors :D So much better than the three-storey house, lol ;)

While waiting, I'm gonna prepare my answer key for my primary 5 class for the next year.

Till then, in 2010.

我想很快的我们的俱乐部即将关闭，不知道你会不会跟我一样有少许的失落和不知所措？只剩下你和我应该会很寂寞，想想也只能相依为命了，亲爱的朋友！

Christmas eve has been well spent with the birds. Familiar faces that I've not seen in quite a while. Had the very healthy steamboat at Melissa's place. Didn't play mahjong successfully because in the end all we did was just lazing around and watch tv while we talk about other people that we kinda know.

Lady, Melissa and I went to watch The Treasure Hunter near midnight after that.

Christmas and the following days were all homely and rather christmasy with the family. Had a good rest over the long weekend. Finally had time for myself.

Who says that Christmas's a day for partying and clubbing?

I think its rather funny that random people have similar interest. Would want to meet him someday to see for myself.

So it's now a fresh, new page. God knows why it took so long? Perhaps its all due to it being a forgotten task, unknowingly being thrown to the back of the mind a long long time ago.

Felt really good and happy these days. Like balanced, motivated and really happy & fulfilled! Still not having much of a social life though (because I can't go kite flying with the Jurong people, plus one Bukit Merah girl) Have been doing marking in school and sometime at home, working out answer key, planning what to go through with the kids the next day when I get home from work at night. Then I'll read to my heart's content before I finally go to sleep.

So with a life that I adore like this, it doesn't matter if I'm still single. Note, there's a great difference between "single" and "empty window"

Imagine your throat's all red or rather bloody and has white spots. Omg, I sympathize the doctor who saw my throat. But on the other hand, guess she's already used to it. Guess what, I'm praised by my doctor because she thinks I got a high tolerance of pain. To have endure 3 whole days of such a bad sore throat before I decided to see a doctor.

Well, that's what you get after screaming at children aged 7 to 12 for an entire week.

A horrible throat infection or (what's the other term, can't remember) lose your voice for one day, a fever of 39 degrees and a two day mc which means two days' pay flew away.

Back to work on monday. Must make the kids do their christmas cards! I realise Christmas is just a week away. Time really flies!

Looking forward to seeing the rest of the people in this coming holiday.

Next week is a short week because there's only 3 days of work.

Darryn: Teacher! Not fair, he also got talk!

Me: There's nothing as fair. Life is not fair and life is never fair.

I think I am a very cruel teacher, because I expose my kids to the real world when they are suppose to be immerse in some "happily-ever-after" kind of childhood. Am I turning more kids into realistic, practical sadists like myself, perhaps so.

Ah, just felt that first week at work is rather interesting. Am getting to remember more names and getting the hang of being a teacher, scolding kids (I realised I'm not really good at this at first because I've never got much of a chance to discipline the young anyway) and teaching the class plus trying my best to control the terrible noise (which I completely hate!)

Hang Man is the game that I play with my kids. Must start to have more challenging words in my head now.

Lesson plan that I have for my class for next week includes Christmas Card making! Which means I have to start making a sample soon! This reminds me that I have to start making some thing for my dear friends too.

Like the holidays because it feels really free now. Having a job gives me a sense of security, lol! Apparently single girls like me loves to have lots of money and spare cash, no?

In love with the fact that I really have a life. Don't have to read notes but now I've got time for my favourite chick lit. Movies, tv and everything else :D

By the way, it's now a tough war between Tango and Deja Vu. I hope to hear some reply soon.

I think I wasted a bucketful of tears tonight.

It should not have even happened, shouldn't it? On my point of view, I'm being very understanding (at least I thought I was...) but I'm sorry if I was really ranting and complaining because I'm starting to feel sorry. The pressure was not only with you, it was with all of us.

Today was supposed to be a good day. We're so happy in the day, aren't we?

Honestly, I wondered what ruined all that happiness.

I'm tuning up the volume on the iPod as I write this. I think it was not because of the music that I'm listening (it's Wow by Elva Hsiao feat Show Luo, in case you're wondering.) I think I just plainly needed some noise in this room. As the motorbike zoomed passed now, I wished that noise was even louder, a bit loud enough so as to take all this nonsense away.

Working from Tuesday onwards, that's a small happy news. Once again I have to say sorry to Jin Xian. Please know that I'm gonna try my very best for you and am praying for you babe.

Something from Crowd Lu for sharing.

听见了吗

我只想看着你用任何距离
非常安静飘过一片云
你的关心变成灰色墙壁
我没能力抵挡攻击

让如何告诉你我的心情
我还想陪着你任何天气
我还粉望可以传达给你
唱给你听在秋天里～

那你听见了吗我不安的心脏
听见了吗要送给你的花
我所有能量只能让这首歌与你分享
听见了吗你在想着谁吧
听见了吗我拥有的快乐悲伤
不用回答你听见了吗

我只想看着你用任何距离
非常安静飘过一片云
你的关心变成灰色墙壁
我没能力抵挡攻击

那你听见了吗我不安的心脏
听见了吗要送给你的花
我所有能量只能让这首歌与你分享
听见了吗你在想着谁吧
听见了吗我拥有的快乐悲伤
不用回答你听见了吗

那你听见了吗我不安的心脏
听见了吗要送给你的花
我所有能量只能让这首歌与你分享
听见了吗你在想着谁吧
听见了吗我拥有的快乐悲伤
不用回答给我一个微笑

We ask ourselves what are we going to do if ___________

Yet, no one is able to give us an concrete answer. Sigh, that's life.

Happy that travelling plans are more or less settled, guess Cosmo is most prolly the choice as for now because I think it sounds a bit weird for us to book a queen size bed instead of a twin bed. Still looking, still looking.

Love the december weather because its so cooling! Makes me feel good and at eased :D Loved surfing net on the bed with the ipod buzzing. I wished it was Friday now because it feels like Friday. Last paper on Thursday morning and I'm already looking forward to the job next week! Totally anticipating the days when I'm going to get the not-so-big-fat-paycheck. Shall be more self-contented huh.

Caught 2012. The big question for such movie is "Will such a day ever come?" After thought for this movie is : Suck up to the chinese now to save your life.

The element of the chinese culture is so strong nowadays, even in those hollywood movies. That is why I think it is kind of sad to see that our future generations are practically big fat potatoes. Imagine six out of ten of these children comes from english speaking families. I hope my niece wouldn't be one of them.

To the poly people, good luck for your exams! It's your turn now.

"你看她那副在谈恋爱，充满幸福的那张脸"

I think its because we're not there yet, so there's lots and many many what ifs. Perhaps its true that when we're there, things weren't going to be the same. What we may be thinking about now may not make sense then. I could only hope that as for me, I wouldn't change.

Then what about you, are you there yet?

Having many random thoughts lately. I can't wait for these tormenting days to pass then I can start working. I secretly enjoy the times when I work, or dress like an OL. my best friend hates these two letters though. Can't believe that I'm already on my way to job hunting.

6 papers passed in a whirl. 5 more to go in just 3 days spread over the span of 3 weeks. wow - not that fast neither actually.

Will start making x'mas cards soon after the exams.

I think its always when people looked back into their past, then they will realised how much they have grown. Checked and cleared my email inbox and folders, then I knew how much junk and worthless forwarded messages I had inside there.

I guess things like this are part of growing up, when you actually look forward to your friends forwarding chain messages like "You're my best friend" & "Just For You".

Well, can't blame me because I had my current email since I was in primary two?

Having major headaches lately. Have been doing something that the usual me wouldn't do. Although in the confort of my house - according to MY, but still its very tiring.

Anyway, I think the government should make women serve the army as well. I think their experiences at firing the F5 button on the keyboard to snatch clothes will be good for them to adapt at firing M16 rifles too!

tmr, tmr - having a small break.

That's why I love Fridays

Last week, was on the bus and saw this car will this label "TGIF"

"Thank God Its Friday" right?

No, it writes, "Thank God I'm Female"

And the car was driven by a femal driver. I think cars behind her in the lane will shun her, knowing how reckless some female drivers are, really.

Many last minute decisions made lately. Am I getting bolder, I really have got no idea.

Romance is so subjective, don't you think so?

"That is so not romantic!" This is such a classic line that I seem to hear all the time when I'm out on the streets. I sort of enjoy eavesdropping, I admit that. Friends around me know that I like responding to random questions to people on the sly.

I'm talking rubbish? Maybe. Prolly all due to me not talking to people for quite some time, other than to meh meh before I go to bed. So I finally logged online tonight. People who had spotted me on msn, congrats! I think you're highly likely to strike the lottery tomorrow :D

There's a couple of nice mandarin albums released these days. I like David Tao's An Lian and a few of Elva Hsiao's new songs. Oh, Eason's too ;)

Looking forward to a couple of movies like New York, I Love You and Valentine's Day. I like romance movies too, despite that black aura :D

I ask myself random questions from time to time, and this happens to be one of them: What is the last movie that I have last watched in the theatre?

I think most likely Lady will have the answer since she's most probably the last person that I've watched a movie with. By the way, what's that last movie? Because I really couldn't remember.

Am a STM (short-term memory - used this term all the time when I was back in the secondary school days) victim. Kept losing stuffs in my room, simply because I've forgotten where I've last placed them. Can't find that pen that I was using two days ago. STM's prolly the reason why I'm having such a bad time memorising my notes?

I should have been in bed by now as I am an early sleeper. But apparently, I can't get to sleep at all, don't know why. Here I am staring at mitotic cycles. And I kept spelling it as "mytotic" when I'm writing down points.

That's a sign that I'm sleepy, I guess?

These days, I don't know what's the point of me surfing the net. There's only that couple of sites that I visit nowadays and they simply do not have any updates - other than Straits Times.

Can't wait for this torment to end in roughly a month. I'm counting down to you, babe - 4 Dec

任性 by Stefanie Sun

喜欢听歌感人的歌
它让我觉得爱是对的
睡不着我就醒着
喜欢唱歌动人的歌
它让我获得一点心得
得不到我就放掉
不再让日子被打乱了
寂寞很吵我很安静情
绪很多我很镇静
因为投入所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒

固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果
终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避让感情犯错

承诺算不算任性的要求
人总是不能太容易感动
当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要从混乱解脱
不去碰触到我的需要
喜欢听歌动人的歌

I've always find this song pretty meaningful, sums up about people breaking up I guess?

Hoping for this week to come to an end very much, had got better and more important plans plus things to do on the weekends. Revision, no?

Wanna get the "What Digital Camera" magazine at Kinokuniya too and partly its cause of the freebie that comes along with it.

Met Mel for lunch today, so true for "bags" on the streets.

Feel like sleeping very terribly :(

Note to self: Complete SAJC chemistry prelim papers by today and go flip 联合早报

sometimes, I couldn't help but question myself, "Am I a full-grown woman simply being trapped in a body of an 18 year old, or am I a kid who refuse to acknowledge the fact that I'm already 18?"

I do get tired, I think. Perhaps, I already am, very mentally and physically drained. If you think that I am a superwoman, then sorry to disappoint your expectations, I am not. I feel lethargic, I need some drive and some fun, to remind myself that I am indeed 18, or going to 19.

Only when I do those housework, then I'll realised that I'm not so much of a failure after all.

Yesterday, when I was watching Million Singer, I laughed really loud but after that moment, I asked myself, was I really that amused after all? Or was that laughter to show myself that I was still pretty much young at heart, or most importantly, happy?

When there are people being dependent on you, it seems to be a good sign. It indicates that you're reliable. But sometimes, when people depend on me, I feel scared, because I'm afraid that I might just fall over, dragging the other person right down with me.

I wonder, is not doing a good job considered a sin?

I think its just fated that I'm not that little flower that is being grown in the daddy and mummy's greenhouse. In fact, when I see people like my age whining about every single insignifcant thing, I feel like slapping them right across the face. Don't you have better things to worry about?! Perhaps, I'm just referring to myself because I do have bigger things to think about on my mind.

That's probably fending for myself. And feeding myself. Earning money during the holidays is not about having some spare cash to upgrade my closet size or to get that new plus oh-so-pretty branded bag. Because for me, retail therapy had to be capped at a minimum max, what an oxymoron huh. Earning myself an income is a necessity because as what Mum told me yesterday, 你不去赚钱，你要谁来养你？

That wasn't a joke. It came out the rough way, the hard cold realistic truth.

That's prolly the reason why I never once stretched out my hand for money, even when I was dead broke.

Maybe I'm just tired lately, not having enough sleep, having lots of random dreams and hearing lots of stupid shits.

The more you have, the more expections you have. I think that's really not healthy.

I am happy as I am right now, not craving for an changes. No 加把劲 for me, lol :D

Anyway, going to send the maid home prolly tomorrow. I'm sorry for my parents, but it think these teaches them a lesson, because you shouldnt be overall nice to your worker because they eventually step all over you. I strongly believe in this: 好人早死。That simply explains my mean and evil personality, isn't it?

Been hearing lots of shit lately, so I'm avoiding somebody.

The stomach is growling, very loudly. In my brother's place and am baby-sitting. I didn't see cup noodles around.

The stomach is protesting and I am doing Chemistry now, double sadness.

Thinking that I'm going to see Ms. A lesson tomorrow, that's gonna make my mood worse now.

I miss gossipping with lady and the cat.

Perhaps I shall steal a mooncake from the fridge later to fill my sad little stomach, hahaha.

Can't wait for the week to end because I'm anticipating the weekends to come, but minus the part that I have to do all the overdued chemistry on saturday (again)

Retail therapy is sinful

Perhaps I should bank in my 15 bucks cheque from SPH soon. Gotten it from them because I submitted a picture to the press 2 years back.

Hating those 3 digits. I hope money drop from the sky someday. We shall all wait in the college synthetic field to catch kaching!

Going out to get the cake vouchers later.

Am craving for bubble tea.

I want to read a proper story book, not notes :(

当你在心里藏了太多的怨气，它总有一天会爆发出来。我只是不知道那个最终遭殃的人是谁。

so fed up with the missy maid today that I gave her a scolding off once I woke up this morning. I'm so sorry but you simply fail the tests. Realised that she's becoming smarter nowadays and she always makes up stupid excuses. When she realises that these lies does not work on me, she shows me the classic miserable look, hoping to gain some sympathy from the rest of my family. Prolly she also knows that there's no such word as sympathy in my dictionary.

Heartless boon? I guess so.

A day of Chemistry yesterday, more Chemisty today. Hoping to complete the GP paper too because I can't be lagging too much behind William! Going to camp at my study table since 9am is everything else goes according to plans.

I really want to go town today - if only I can afford to finish all the assignments before early afternoon, kinda impossible actually but never mind. It's good to think of nice things ;P

Retail therapy, me want some!

Am aiming for the bag.

weekend equates to never ending pile of chemistry shits. time to camp in the library tomorrow morning. hoping to watch a movie tomorrow night to unwind.

Singapore identity (general paper overdose today, think its better than Chemistry at least.) is all about being kiasu, sweeping statement huh, I personally don't think so. Simply check out the women kinokuniya waiting for cheap thrills, I am too, one of them. Just hoping to have the easier way out so when they are fast, I gotta be faster.

Finally went for the hair cut today. Was wishing that its gonna turned out a little like Rui En or Tavia Yeung but I think it resembles neither. What a sad life?

Lunch box days for everyone since the new time table started. Its fun to see some of the people having even bigger thermo flasks than the one that I own.

Who decides what's in for the future? You, me or the papas and mamas? Every step, it seems like we are merely taking a risk, with the tendency to fail and fall. The one that bears the consequence - yourself.

I begin to wonder, what's in there for the days to come? I already got no idea what else I could expect. So much for trying to prove that "HDB kids having lower stress threshold" is all wrong. I do wish to meet that reporter and asks if he or she is born in a kingdom or in a slump?

So much ranting today proves how miserable I am right now at this minute. I think I deserve more sleep in every single day.

Still, I think blue converses suck.

Back to Chem-war. boom, boom, boom.

TEH SEE EN SARAH
4 September 2009

Am craving for big breakfast at mac.

time's passing really fast, realised that time is silently drifting by every morning when I walk into the school gate and sees those big two digit reducing in its value.

sometimes, I really do feel that people are all just thinking and caring about themselves. so true for 人不为己天诛地灭！ Wonder why people can't just stop and feel for others and do somethings that make others feel happier, perhaps you'll gain a little something in return? The world's not just about you, yourself and you again. The earth won't just revolve around you like you're the centre of everything.

Had been really obsessed with the word "借口" lately. no, no, not the jay chou song. hahaha

Haircut, should go for a haircut soonish.

Here I am, bright awake. This is even earlier than my waking up time for school. All thanks to my brother's morning call at 6:20 to talk about his dream. I think he is freaking out. If its not now then, yes its gonna be pretty soon.

So I think I'm gonna study for chemistry soonish *clap clap*

Recalled Jean, Ronald and my conversation yesterday at lunch. Guess it went something like this.

J: You guys wanna buy class photos?

R: Don't want.

B: I want the formal shot.

J: Ronald, you don't need to buy since you're not inside (LOL!)

R: *pouts*

J: Ask Boon send you the class tee shots lah, its on facebook.

R: I dont have facebook

J: Go create one accout

B: I have a facebook and I have a life.

J: Have facebook is no life lor.

B: I got say life equates to facebook meh?

J: No, if you have facebook and friendster, then you got no life.

So who have life and who doesn't?!

Met up with my lovely Lady again.

Thanks to her, I got to enjoy a complimentary chocolate mousse from Pastamania to cheer me up, hehehe.

Happy about my retail therapy despite a rough & terrible day I had in the day. Comfort food, I need my comfort food...

Line of the day:

"When our skin brushes each other by accident, it somehow felt familiar and weird enough, neither of us moved away. Was it because that you were too engrossed in the movie and me in my book or simply because we just wanted the feel to linger there for a few more moments?"

HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY :D

This is a game about trust and I'm glad I've stepped ahead and taken a step forward.

In fact, I had been really moody since yesterday. I have an urge to bite and scream badly. URGGGGGGH. but the package came and it cheered me up, tyvm ;P

Many random thoughts lately. Thinking about something after hearing what Jean had said about someone and somebody, hmmmm. Thought about "situation-impossible" lol. too stress ah, too stressed...

Had been having so many dreams, seriously like sleeping dreams, its kinda driving me nuts because can't sleep well :X

Oh, I think its funny about Jinxian boosting to her parents about having 5 weeks of holidays. hahaha yeah indeed, "5 weeks"

The weekends are here again. Made a pact with mummy to get away from the house tomorrow morning to avoid the confrontation.

cheers mates!

Chemistry seems like a whole pile of never ending shit. was running through ionic equilibrium and saw my own scribble in a whole lot of unreadable scribbles. that's what chem does to people, right mates?

i actually written what aisha said in class. "YOU NEED TO MOVE ON!"

meaningful. finally something she said does make sense and I can make sense out of a thing that she said, phew phew. lol

By the way, the project yellow photos are up on facebook, go grab'em now classmates! :D

p.s. this is the virgin attempt at posting photos and tagging people on facebook. lol

Long overdued:

note to myself and Meiying. no more proper meals at Coffee Club. lol

I agree with Mel. How could we actually forget about 8th Aug? Its almost like a birthday, I guess? But yet, it doesn't really seem to ring a bell at all, on last Saturday.

Happy national day. love long weekends.

saw MY's blog then realised how long I've not been feeding pipi. Shall log in and see what's pet society has changed into later.

study break. note to self: pls don't sleep!

fainty, dizzy spells (again) in the toilet.

Adeline told me the other day in school that I seem to be a total different person when I write over here. hahaha I wonder do I sound like I'm old or I'm older? Old 70-year olds cannot have a blog, huh? Too hip for your liking, Ai-de?! ;D

Felt like a hip and trendy teenager on last Saturday when we visited Dragonfly at St.James Power Station to attend Wilbur Pan's music party. He didn't look like he was nearly 30, very boyish.






I think I should have raised my hand and drank that coke if I knew what that game was about. Salted cola! Missed that chance to grab the 100 bucks worth hamper :(

What really upsets me is that he didn't sing my favourite song!

It was a really nice chit-chat session with Jin Xian, Adeline and William. He didn't really talk though, lol! We didn't manage to see the fireworks from the NDP Preview, we saw the colored smoke though, hehehe quite pathetic actually.

Next time we must go to the rooftop at Esplanade okay, then I'll propose to Adeline there! LOL :D :D :D

Old people like old things. I like old stuff, old memory. Really into old movies lately. All thanks to HBO and starmax. I kinda hate youtube, seriously. Vanilla Sky, I want to watch Vanilla Sky! Tom Cruise is nice looking, no denial.

Mum's screaming at the maid like some lunatic now, hahaha I wonder what they are up to in the kitchen, hmmmm. Think mel should come over some day and see tin tin soonish, lol. many many...

Still pondering what's the other name. SGG, TGG and and.....?!

I am happy with the phone, enjoying and playing with the phone. havent configure the wifi, must do it someday soon.

missed the OG, everyone's like busy. it was kinda like the mini gathering this morning with Guan Yi and Chia Miang outside LT 1.

By the way, I think seeing pretty faces make people joyful, no?

At least it does for me, so it makes me a joyous person. I think heaven is nice, it creates beautiful people in this world to make other not so beautiful people, for instance me, to be happy.

I think I'm generally and genuinely a happy and satisfied person. I think its a good thing. I am happy and blessed.

可能是看到别人的人生有太多的不如意与不幸，所以会对自己拥有的一切感到更加地珍惜。每个人该走的路都不一样，那我想我应该感谢我现在这一条路并不是太难走。

我想人要活在当下，因为下一刻是未知数。活得开心和快乐，活出精彩。生活中还有很多美好的事等待着你去体验和探索，不是吗？

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MEL

love you all the same, always.

watching new trailers on apple.com makes me really happy. dont know why is that so, but I guess this is about an anticipation of new movies for a movie fanatic like me. perhaps I don't patronize the cinema as much as some other people do (especially couples, I really do agree that they're probably the main contributors to the revenues that the box tickets earned. I came round to this conclusion after seeing the queue outside GV at Vivocity last Saturday. To my surprise, the queue for the popcorns was even longer. There were so many people that I could hardly see the entrance leading to the halls.) but yeah, there's always something called rented dvds. sometimes, I will turn to you, "http://www.watch-movies-links.net/"

Sometimes I really think that my cousin is insane. How could he vie with him?

Craving for fresh oysters very very much. Reminds me of The Line :/

Just heard from dad and mum today that you're not supposed to say '饭后一根烟，快乐似神仙' in Taiwan. You'll get fined. Is this for real?!

Was on the train today and saw a particular advertistment. Got me to think of the Bubble Boy that contracted SCID. I think those doctors made a wrong choice right from the beginning. no offence though, just a person opinion.

Reading, I want to do reading. Lately, all I shop for are books, weird?!

Busy week ahead, busy.

down with a cold and was at home resting today. did homework, watched tv and surfed the net. felt like a holiday, lol. i'm not exactly supposed to think like that, no?

so I happened to see Wilbur Pan's MV on the MTV channel and I thought this was a nice song to share. felt that the lyrics was rather meaningful at some parts (:

我努力的习惯 一个人的夜晚 只是想起你 就会孤单
回忆像一碗热汤 想念那么滚烫 只想要取暖 却狠狠被烫伤
以为幸福 值得勇敢 可惜 最后还是走散
放手说真的不难 心碎 该怎么计算

要搬过几个地方 换几个伴 才到对的人身旁
寂寞的房 灯光别开得太亮 到夜晚更无处躲藏
要搬到什么地方 有谁陪伴 才决定停止流浪
寂寞的房 装满出租的渴望 太冰冷的墙 爱永远没有回答

我倒在沙发上 闭上眼更害怕 只剩下电视陪着我说话
你有没有听到 门铃好像在响

要搬过几个地方 换几个伴 才到对的人身旁
寂寞的房 灯光别开得太亮 到夜晚更无处躲藏
要搬到什么地方 有谁陪伴 才决定停止流浪
寂寞的房 装满出租的渴望 太冰冷的墙 爱永远没有回答
寂屋出租吗 爱永远没有回答

So how many wrong ones must you meet in order to meet the right one?

took a while in the morning to realise about the best pw team award thingy. but no matter what, done well and congrats to our group and it was really enjoyable through the project last year.

this thought me about 平常心

没有希望就不会有失望。有没有得奖没有关系，有的话就把它当成一种而外的奖励吧！

totally lost when SGG was mentioned. i know its TGG but what's the other name?! lol

the class is having an over dosage of korean male stars, tsk tsk.

highly random, i found it really entertaining when my maid sings the brittany spears songs to herself in the room during her free time.

craving to breathe the fresh air in the morning and go for some nice photos in the early early hours. the pain of city people, they probably don't know how fresh air smelt like.

happy one year anniversary in 8 days time, my dear.

i think i love you, don't I?

alright, that aside. let's weigh the pros and cons.

the P: the wifi. the grip. the graphics, the 5mp. the 3.5mm audio jack. the music player (can replace my nano g1 if it really do die...) and the touchscreen, the non-metal sleek phone (i'm sick of getting rid of my nokias due to its rust)

the C: no more hubber, meaning its another 100 bucks off my pocket. no stylus (I still thinks that this is a joke - because its either they give you two stylus or no stylus.) more colors may still appear sooner or later. the price may drop. the re-learning to be done.

damn I even dream of this at night.

Night Festival was an awesome event. Had tons of fun with my two lovelies. hehehe

okay i think i'll show you guys the cartoon of me (i think you had already seen MY's. haven't? go check it out! hahaha) when I'm really mentally prepared for it, lol

Loop of Fortune was fan-ta-stic. The fireworks was great and side note, singaporeans are just as kiasu. i think we are too. all thanks to peer pressure. i think the place we stood was a good spot to see the show.

love the random shit that we talked about while waiting for the show to start.

oh, and the women are impressive. they probably don't have the word dizzy or headache in their dictionary.

we must go night fest again next year okay!

i missed the mussels ):

good news.

chanced upon the book that I had thought that I had misplaced when I was desperately searching for my passbook.

by the way, it's called "The Chocolate Run" by Dorothy Koomson

I think its a good read, do try it if you're into romance novels! I'm currently on page 67. I gotta admit that it is totally addictive

Share MY's sentiment of why people don't read. I think this is a wonderful hobby or rather past time. Reading calms my nerves or it actually prevents the volcano from erupting...

My maid just broke the purple coka-cola glass that I've been using for the past month, very upsetting. I've got like half a dozen of charcoal colored ones but that's the only purple one I have :(

Saw my neighbour using the MSN to im when I was about to enter my house just now in the evening. Just lead me to think when was actually the last time I properly used that to chat online with a friend?

In fact, I can hardly remember when was the last time I had actually logged in..

Am having a very bad memory nowadays, i kept misplacing things in my house.

first was my watch, that made me learnt a very important lesson, that is to not ask my maid to search for things when they go missing. next was my newly bought fiction, just happened to find it, probably half an hour ago. but now, i can't seem to find my posb passbook. can't find it when i really need it. tsk tsk, very upsetting!

still haven't gotten that adobe pack. probably on monday. its youth day hols. rejoice, jc people!

CT over. made me slightly happier, i guess?

met up with MY on wednesday. awesome friend, she's a mate that backs me up, lol

horrible holidays?

not really.

had quite a blast of fun doing cip at the science centre as a lab assistant as well as being volunteers and playing with the kids. i realise kids nowadays are really different and at those times when i interact with them, i felt like i was really from a different era.

oh, had a chance to go into the da vinci exhibition for free. it was really awesome *thumbs up* and yup, enjoying looking at things from that artistic point of view with no religion bounded. if you guys are interested, do make a trip down okay! tickets quite expensive though, i think.

didn't exactly love that nikon D5000 much. way to go for more money saving!!

RECENTS

gotten a new printer at the recent PC Show, good buy, good buy.

made a fruity fragrance at lab the other day, i don't dare to wear it out.

caught Ghost of Girlfriend's Past yesterday, not bad. minus the effect of the 2 little kids brought in by their parents. dont know what are their parents thinking??

met up with Mel and MY, ate cjlmxlb buffet (finally), didnt turn out to be as fantastic as expected, for me.

bought sims 3, hopefully diana don't go to work on a helicopter.

hestitating to buy japanese shows to watch everytime i walk pass TS, tsk tsk.

went to mango sale and bought that top that i've always wanted!!! thank you MY for all that walking that night!

still haven't buy that 99 bucks adobe, plain lazy me.

can't wait for the japanese show at 11.30 tonight. MY has already finished it, like wth?!

reaching a saturation point lately, i guess?

i think some people build their relationship on the basis on the word "material", weird, isn't it?

i wonder what is the difference between liking someone and the idea of liking someone? sounds chim?! not really, just depends on where you're standing.

caught ms. heng and her husband on national tv (the way she always put it) last night, super funny. was seriously laughing a lot.

on a highly random note, sometimes, I really wonder if it is really possible to resume our lives and live on when certain things happened? Apparently for me, this never seem like it. To me, when things happened, they happen and they leave marks - the presence of them being there and they never seem to fade. I tend to remember things of the past and hang on to the past - I think many people do that too so I'm definitely not the only one. But seriously what's wrong with that?

I really want to ask. "I know you're gone, but why do I always feel that you're always there?"

No, I think I can't pretend that nothing happened and carry on with my life just that.

I think I'm catching up with life on a slightly happier note lately. Hoping to see old and familiar faces lately, like the cat and Maria. Felt that I've not met them for a long time.

Have been eyeing on that new D5000 too, can't watch for its launch.. and i kept hanging around the sims 3 site, the sims craze is back in action ahhhhhhh... hmmmmm. pray hard for money to drop from the sky now.

I think I've caught the flu bug from Vanice, my nose is seriously after my life. AHHHHH-CHOOOOOO. had no mood to study for tomorrow's biology spa trial. both good and bad of tomorrow's thursday time table to be switched to friday's.

Am really excited and looking forward to this coming Friday because the class is really and finally going to sing with dear Ms Heng and her husband after many many failed attempts

Today's Talentime's preliminaries, praying hard that Jin Xian's group will get through to the semi-finals. result's out tomorrow! I'm so going to take next wednesday's duty again.

love healing hands III, its aired on channel u!

saw Maria's post, soon soon, this I promise you....

A fresh new week and chemistry skill A trial this morning was alright, i guess? i realised i haven't get part D into my head at all. all I really want to say is, screw KmnO4!

on a slightly happier note, I got my new ez-link card on last tuesday and it is surprisingly my long-lost 70kg looking sumo-wrestler face! :D :D :D awesome!

by the way, long weekends are good cause' I can catch up with sleeping!

and i finally caught confessions of a shopaholic with me, myself and I. wonderful thing, wonderful show, i know. it was a lousy cinema experience, bad seating, bad sound system. i should rent the dvd when its out.

on a side note, red cliff's collectors dvd is out.

if you're wondering, its an A.

back to bio tutorial. hate those cancerous cells :X

i think this was the best week ever? 4 days of school plus, no test. should be meeting up with the og people on thursday night for dinner and perhaps movie and singing session on good friday with classmates. looking forward (:

i think it was a rather upsetting news to hear that ah sang (taiwanese singer) died of breast cancer. simply 34 years of life, then boom, gone?! is life really that short-lived?

i think when people's gone then you begin to miss them and cherish them. tsk, is this really just human's nature? or is that most people simply lack some sense of appreciation? Appreciation is a big word, and I feel that some of the kids today are too smart and they don't really understand the meaning.

pw exhibition tomorrow. things are finally coming to an end, i think this is good news. which means that pw results are coming which equates to bad news.

lately's been more of a moody and bluuuuu.

btw, it's david tao's sha tan.

only blue only blue
爱让人好忧郁
我的心我的心
蓝蓝地

i'm sorry to my dear dear lady for being 3 days late for this.


HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, MARIA!






i'm down to virus infection with 2 day mc at home. back to school tomorrow. people in class (in case you guys are really reading this) you all better miss me. hahahaha! bee teng messaged me yesterday and said that people felt weird without me in class, felt damn touched!


can't wait to be back tomorrow!


i love fridays. but i hate the biology lecture test tomorrow.

Adeline asked me the other day why our class is not under the LOVES column so yup, I edited it. so I really meant I love you when I say it to them, hehehehehe.

Looking forward to the coming weekend :)

to answer all your doubts:

Technically, it wasn't a dress but its just the thing that the CHIJ girls wear to school, what do you call that? ENLIGHTEN ME!

Seriously, I think that facebook's geo challenge made me a comparatively more competitive person. I helped *** play her geo challenge because I really can't stand the score at the bottom. And seeing fangqi's score improving day by day made me feel threatened because I'm kinda afraid that sooner or later she may just beat my score so it makes it a point for me to constantly create a new high score.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE...

It's recession so we just have to eat at Hard Rock Cafe! :D it was BMM day. Gotten He's Just Not That Into You from Borders and spent ten bucks from Ronald's Borders gift cards! Finally ate the long awaited scallop rice burger from Mos Burger, hehehe. Oh, the mos burger at Clementi feels really different because I think that the lightings are really bright.

Think I'm getting old or something because I kept thinking about the older days. Love the answer the Million Dollar Question Time :P Drank lots of ice milk tea, felt realy bloated on my way home and I think the dress that I wore plus the way I rub my tummy made me look like a pregnant woman, tsk tsk.

Had a happy moment counting ticket studs just now :)

ON A HIGHLY RANDOM NOTE: i found this conversation quite meaningful. Was reading this book that I borrowed from the library the other day (that day when I happened to bump into Enna - just in case you're reading, lol. she asked me don't I have to study because I borrowed 4 books and I answered that I had to improve on my GP - well, that was a big fat joke. Borrowing 4 books in the middle of my march hols is because I had a problem sleeping on my new bed and I need books to make myself even sleepy-ier at night)

Back to the conversation, here it goes:

"When somebody leaves you, it's always better if they leave you to be with someone else," said Matt.

"Why is that?" I said.

"Because otherwise it means that they just really, really can't stand you."

- The Big Love by Sarah Dunn

I think it is a wonderful feeling to see people around me to be basking in love... (seriously, i don't know is this the right way to put it this way but, it guess it's okay)

was supposed to go k-boxing with classmates tomorrow after chemistry class but plans were cancelled because Ms. Heng could not make it as there was last minute plans for her to be in school for the west zone line camp, grrrrr.

Think 93.3Fm has been playing a lot of joey yung's songs lately, think its because her coming concert. has been listening a lot of the radio because the tuner has finally been fixed by dad on the weekend!

oh, am watching The Seventh Day on cable tv. Still watching it although I've already watched it before. Mel don't really like that show which I just don't know why. hahahaha if Jean were to see this, she will sure that i like old men. lol

If only time could stop here, stop now...

i went to the IT SHOW with Jean today, hoping that I could grab some cheap steals, which is hopefully an iPod dock, but no luck. there was unfortunately, no altec lansing in sight and the logitech that I was thinking about was totally sold out. Jean did not get her notebook too. The place was damn packed and seeing the old colleagues just reminds me of the days at work. Really wished that I was one of them. Hmmmm, missed the times when I was working, talking to the customers and the PAY! they worked with my favourite boss this time, damn I really felt like screaming right now.

Trying to complete my biology skill A, does it sound really foreign to most of you out there? (I think I'm referring to Enna, Lady and Mel)

Windows kept prompting me to restart my computer for updates. I think its the 4th time since I started using my computer.

Here comes the one week hols and it's ALMOST ruined. lots of studying to do, totally demoralising.

This is the "Quick-Clear-Your-Undone-Assignment-Weekend". Just finished my online math mcq assignment and soon, i'll be moving on to work on the G.P online assignment of AQ.

Catched Valkyrie with Jean, William, Adeline and Alina and it was unexpectedly not too bad. thought that it was just another watch, don't understand and forget kind of a historical war film but it was well, pretty good. Felt rather overwhelmed with emotions after that. if you're a history fan then you shouldnt miss it.

Watched He's Just Not That Into You with Lady on the following day. I think it was a rather inspiring movie, suits people who are single (like us) and people who are attached (like the most of you out there). it wasnt the typical chic flick that just makes you laugh really loudly then forget all about it. i think it somehow leads me on to think and reflect about somethings, hmmmm...

Looking forward to seeing Mel soon - Pink Panther better be good, lol.

It seems like there are a couple of good movies, e.g. Curious Case of Benjamin Button, He's Just Not That Into You and Slumdog Millionaire, on and am seriously finding time to watch. I wonder when is the cat finishing her exams, hmmmm....

HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY

Thank goodness that there's Lady to celebrate V.Day with me and not made me a lonesome soul due to the fact that someone's away in hk and can't celebrate this special day with me.

With lots of food, laughs and entertainment, the 孤女寡女 who are best friends had lots of fun together on the night of 14th February 2009 [:

i guess it was the best morning assembly ever because we received a great news this morning. and that is my group's pw project 's written report is the best 4 in this cohort and they're going to compile it in the critical voices journal this year. glad that the written report was "done extremely well" according to mr. sin and really hoped for the best for the results, which is coming most probably early march.

it was a good friday the 13th today (;

i think this may sound really silly but i think the purpose in life (for all of us) is to actually stay alive. what happens if you sleep tonight and you never wake up tomorrow? the scary part is that you don't even know that you didn't wake up.

so congratulate yourself when you wake up in the next morning. smile and tell yourself - you've gained another day [;

i wished time could slow down and let me have a few moments to stand alone in some peaceful beach and breathe in the sea breeze. life's been too fast and hectic lately, i guess?

went to sentosa with the club last wednesday. took some photos that i really liked [:

i don't know why, but its like seeing things in a total different light.

this is the third day of school, good so far. biology test today was not exactly a killer so i'll hope for a pass this time because i haven't really prepared for it either.

three more tests coming up = more studying to do

oh oh, i'm the new general paper rep this year. its fun to be in a small class because almost everyone gets a post in the committee. hahaha looking forward to a nice and neat testimonial at the end of this year!

super in need for movies, where's my darling melissa foo?!

now i finally understand what is the meaning of "it never rains, it pours."

this is the moment when "hoping" is the only thing you can do but you wanted to do more than that and you can't.

THIS IS LATE, WHICH IS BAD.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO PI!
must write big big because scared she's too old then can't see the small font.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HENDY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME, MYSELF & I [:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SARA & WEI JUN!
(both who is not going to read this anyway =P)

i realised that the loud people aren't that loud anymore. hmmmm, am seriously losing the entertainment that i used to enjoy on the net.

gonna meet the birds later in the evening tonight. so i better get my butt off the chair and go tidy up my wardrobe, as i promised mummy yesterday. be nice [:

to me, 2008 really passed with a blink of an eye. lots of events happened in a short year, good things and bad things, all the major changes in life happening together. guess i didn't experience too much of the "getting over it" phase and poof, another year's gone.


O levels results wasn't much of a good news to me but on the other hand, it wasn't that disappointing after all (because i still could get into a jc). sajc and nyjc didnt want me, so here i am - jurong junior college.


its a place where i met lots of people, both new and old. the school where i saw so many familiar faces of my primary school friends and the new faces that appeared in my life - OG11.



the crazy days where we skipped lectures and hung around near jj affinity during the pae period. going for ngee ann poly open house together, slacking at kap mac laughing at the brainy kids (you know who they are), bbq and sleeping over at kin onn's place, the birthday outings, the random outings (e.g. paterson's "wedding") plus the makan and karaoke sessions. i'm really looking forward to the upcoming year where we can make more effort to meet out despite all our different and hectic schedule.

the next bunch of people in school that made a difference to my life - 08S07.



i think we are possibly one of the smallest classes (because we only have 16 people) in jj due to the weird combi that we have. BCM and GSC (think many people don't have the slightest idea what that is). it's really a cool class with 2 guys and 14 girls, plus we're really bonded in our own unique and subtle manner, lol according to the teachers: "we're the good class"

here's the important friends in life - The Eight



well, it's really weird to graduate from nanhua and somehow losing he chance to be with these bunch of people. love them all the same despite their countless suanings and irrelevent accuses at me. do admit that it seems harder nowadays for all of us to find time to get together and to meet up without the absence of anybody, but i know we'll all gonna try.


i think other than i'm seeing less of enna, felicia and rosie (a.k.a the dating people, lol!), i am still seeing the rest quite frequently (which is good!) besides seeing fangqi and diana in school, i'm still constantly meeting mel for cheap movie sessions at jp and seeing meiying a lot for gluttoning sessions, lol.


still the same words to you guys: love you all and miss you [:

when it comes to the family, it is a time of joy and sadness

joy because bro and my other cousin both got married - think it has been quite a while where the family had such happy occasions to celebrate for. bro got his desired flat, which is within walking distance (one block away) from where we are staying now.

sadness because grandma had passed away. this is a rough patch in life to me, i never had so much tears to shed, only till this year i guess. will always always always remember her.

while my other grandma becomes a regular in NUH. sigh

another aunty passed away, gonna miss her presence in that house and the tasty yummy food that she used to cook for us whenever we go back to m'sia.


to my family: lots of love always and may all be in good health and good luck (talking about striking toto tonight) plus happy happy for everybody <3


talking about new year wishes?


i hope everyone around me are blessed and happy, most importantly being in the pink of health. good results for us all who are still, unfortunately, studying. lol

yup yup.

ENJOY YEAR 2009!