Keeping my cool

Yes, that's what I have been trying to do lately. I am very much like a very grumpy person now. The tension doesn't quite get release out of the system, or rather don't have an outlet to go to. I'm desperately pressed for time, preparation for my presentations and the assignments are all due near the same period of time. Oh, and tests too... To top it off, it's the kids CA2 period now so there's no way I could squeeze out time from there. Making do with less tIme for sleeping, more trips down at LKC and a very tired body.

Well, what spoils the mood even more is the nonsense that I had at work. Sometimes I don't know am I just plain too serious for my own good. Joke or not, intentional or unintentional, I can't really distinguish the difference. Perhaps it's me - a suspicious woman who likes to exaggerate things and make life difficult for myself so I can't have anyone to blame, can I?

Got to be honest, sometimes I would like to hear some words of encouragement from my family and not voices of disapproval or criticism about me not having my priorities right. Aren't these people supposed to be supportive? I have no complains about having my dinner only at supper time with nothing else but probably the left overs that you guys finished. I never utter a word or attempted to stretch out my hand and ask for money when I had to pay that silly telephone bill that wasn't suppose to be my business. I needed that bit of understanding, but instead you guys just brush it off with words that I have interpreted to be saying that I was insensible.

I didn't want to spell it out but if you always had to ask why am I working so late and hard while I'm supposed to spend my time studying - it's because money and studies are equally important to me

In times, I just had to stay away from this bullshit.

Back to school. Had to get back to the busy schedule and prepare myself for more days stuck at the national library with lots of reports due in three weeks time. Hope it will be very soon that I can meet BBF when she starts school at the end of august since she will be only three storey away then ;)

Planned to be at LKC at Wednesday to do up management and marketing

Had a meet up with some primary school mates last Saturday. I think it's a part of growing up when you see people mature, and change. Of course at the same time, be a little out of your expectation. I am fearful of having dead air but well, it went on pretty alright that night.

"See you next year"

Had flown to Guangzhou before school started. Had enjoyed myself but I believed it would have been a much better trip if possible. Was physically satisfied with lots of good food (check out the facebook album, hehe)

Was pretty well emotionally satisfied too.

People may not be able to understand like what is there to see in china? Well I am a very scenery person. I like the views of nature so hills and flowers are kind of great for me. The museums are great, learnt a lot more about Dr. Sun Yet San. Not like you can't search for information of him online but it's just different.

The trip down to Teochew and Shantou was fabulous because being a true blue teochew personally, I totally love the atmosphere when everyone else around you spoke that native language that you know since three years old! And when you converse with the people, you truly felt like one of them and honestly, you felt really close to home at heart.

I know that really sounded alienic but true, I felt like I was home. Not a single inch like a foreigner. 真的有那种认祖归总，落叶归根的感觉。