So I'm not sure what I am supposed to expect in 2010.

Am staying put at home on new year's eve, waiting for the fireworks to shoot up from boonlay as I prolly will be able to see it from my place. Hopefully the town area's fireworks could be seen too. Its amazing when you live on the high floors :D So much better than the three-storey house, lol ;)

While waiting, I'm gonna prepare my answer key for my primary 5 class for the next year.

Till then, in 2010.

我想很快的我们的俱乐部即将关闭，不知道你会不会跟我一样有少许的失落和不知所措？只剩下你和我应该会很寂寞，想想也只能相依为命了，亲爱的朋友！

Christmas eve has been well spent with the birds. Familiar faces that I've not seen in quite a while. Had the very healthy steamboat at Melissa's place. Didn't play mahjong successfully because in the end all we did was just lazing around and watch tv while we talk about other people that we kinda know.

Lady, Melissa and I went to watch The Treasure Hunter near midnight after that.

Christmas and the following days were all homely and rather christmasy with the family. Had a good rest over the long weekend. Finally had time for myself.

Who says that Christmas's a day for partying and clubbing?

I think its rather funny that random people have similar interest. Would want to meet him someday to see for myself.

So it's now a fresh, new page. God knows why it took so long? Perhaps its all due to it being a forgotten task, unknowingly being thrown to the back of the mind a long long time ago.

Felt really good and happy these days. Like balanced, motivated and really happy & fulfilled! Still not having much of a social life though (because I can't go kite flying with the Jurong people, plus one Bukit Merah girl) Have been doing marking in school and sometime at home, working out answer key, planning what to go through with the kids the next day when I get home from work at night. Then I'll read to my heart's content before I finally go to sleep.

So with a life that I adore like this, it doesn't matter if I'm still single. Note, there's a great difference between "single" and "empty window"

Imagine your throat's all red or rather bloody and has white spots. Omg, I sympathize the doctor who saw my throat. But on the other hand, guess she's already used to it. Guess what, I'm praised by my doctor because she thinks I got a high tolerance of pain. To have endure 3 whole days of such a bad sore throat before I decided to see a doctor.

Well, that's what you get after screaming at children aged 7 to 12 for an entire week.

A horrible throat infection or (what's the other term, can't remember) lose your voice for one day, a fever of 39 degrees and a two day mc which means two days' pay flew away.

Back to work on monday. Must make the kids do their christmas cards! I realise Christmas is just a week away. Time really flies!

Looking forward to seeing the rest of the people in this coming holiday.

Next week is a short week because there's only 3 days of work.

Darryn: Teacher! Not fair, he also got talk!

Me: There's nothing as fair. Life is not fair and life is never fair.

I think I am a very cruel teacher, because I expose my kids to the real world when they are suppose to be immerse in some "happily-ever-after" kind of childhood. Am I turning more kids into realistic, practical sadists like myself, perhaps so.

Ah, just felt that first week at work is rather interesting. Am getting to remember more names and getting the hang of being a teacher, scolding kids (I realised I'm not really good at this at first because I've never got much of a chance to discipline the young anyway) and teaching the class plus trying my best to control the terrible noise (which I completely hate!)

Hang Man is the game that I play with my kids. Must start to have more challenging words in my head now.

Lesson plan that I have for my class for next week includes Christmas Card making! Which means I have to start making a sample soon! This reminds me that I have to start making some thing for my dear friends too.

Like the holidays because it feels really free now. Having a job gives me a sense of security, lol! Apparently single girls like me loves to have lots of money and spare cash, no?

In love with the fact that I really have a life. Don't have to read notes but now I've got time for my favourite chick lit. Movies, tv and everything else :D

By the way, it's now a tough war between Tango and Deja Vu. I hope to hear some reply soon.

I think I wasted a bucketful of tears tonight.

It should not have even happened, shouldn't it? On my point of view, I'm being very understanding (at least I thought I was...) but I'm sorry if I was really ranting and complaining because I'm starting to feel sorry. The pressure was not only with you, it was with all of us.

Today was supposed to be a good day. We're so happy in the day, aren't we?

Honestly, I wondered what ruined all that happiness.

I'm tuning up the volume on the iPod as I write this. I think it was not because of the music that I'm listening (it's Wow by Elva Hsiao feat Show Luo, in case you're wondering.) I think I just plainly needed some noise in this room. As the motorbike zoomed passed now, I wished that noise was even louder, a bit loud enough so as to take all this nonsense away.

Working from Tuesday onwards, that's a small happy news. Once again I have to say sorry to Jin Xian. Please know that I'm gonna try my very best for you and am praying for you babe.

Something from Crowd Lu for sharing.

听见了吗

我只想看着你用任何距离
非常安静飘过一片云
你的关心变成灰色墙壁
我没能力抵挡攻击

让如何告诉你我的心情
我还想陪着你任何天气
我还粉望可以传达给你
唱给你听在秋天里～

那你听见了吗我不安的心脏
听见了吗要送给你的花
我所有能量只能让这首歌与你分享
听见了吗你在想着谁吧
听见了吗我拥有的快乐悲伤
不用回答你听见了吗

我只想看着你用任何距离
非常安静飘过一片云
你的关心变成灰色墙壁
我没能力抵挡攻击

那你听见了吗我不安的心脏
听见了吗要送给你的花
我所有能量只能让这首歌与你分享
听见了吗你在想着谁吧
听见了吗我拥有的快乐悲伤
不用回答你听见了吗

那你听见了吗我不安的心脏
听见了吗要送给你的花
我所有能量只能让这首歌与你分享
听见了吗你在想着谁吧
听见了吗我拥有的快乐悲伤
不用回答给我一个微笑

We ask ourselves what are we going to do if ___________

Yet, no one is able to give us an concrete answer. Sigh, that's life.

Happy that travelling plans are more or less settled, guess Cosmo is most prolly the choice as for now because I think it sounds a bit weird for us to book a queen size bed instead of a twin bed. Still looking, still looking.

Love the december weather because its so cooling! Makes me feel good and at eased :D Loved surfing net on the bed with the ipod buzzing. I wished it was Friday now because it feels like Friday. Last paper on Thursday morning and I'm already looking forward to the job next week! Totally anticipating the days when I'm going to get the not-so-big-fat-paycheck. Shall be more self-contented huh.

Caught 2012. The big question for such movie is "Will such a day ever come?" After thought for this movie is : Suck up to the chinese now to save your life.

The element of the chinese culture is so strong nowadays, even in those hollywood movies. That is why I think it is kind of sad to see that our future generations are practically big fat potatoes. Imagine six out of ten of these children comes from english speaking families. I hope my niece wouldn't be one of them.

To the poly people, good luck for your exams! It's your turn now.