Appreciate the kindness when people still wants to shower you with

I am sick of being stuck here, acting like an information feeder. Don't come and tell me that who-who-who is not being nice to you recently because of what-what-what, then ask me what is going on and who is not being happy again. I guess the 'unhappy' guest list exists, just that you don't exactly knows who they are. Why they are unhappy - a very simple reason, you know and I do. Its only usually that you can't see what's the problem when everyone around you deem that as one.

I'm tired of hearing conversations revolving all around you. You're not the sun giving out light, I don't need you to survive, unlike plants do. I no longer wants to hear things telling me that you're too proud and arrogant, sometimes not having a brain to think. Or rather, you don't processed information before you actually speak. Maybe you thought you did think, but your thinking is not logical, although you might think it is. Because in the eyes of many other people, they think you're just way too silly.

The problem with you is that you always think that there is nothing wrong

I am not saying that "happy go lucky" is a bad personality. Just that you have always omitted the point to read between the lines. Especially when everyone points something obvious to you, you reciprocate by being stubborn, saying that either we are being overly sensitive or that we are being silly.

Straight-forward - you shoot whatever that is on your mind, thinking that we're a big family so you're aren't going to hurt or upset anyone. This kind of malicious characteristic probably helps you as much as it kills you. Yes, people around you now know how you feel. Now they can read you like a white sheet of paper, knowing what kind of a person you are. On the other hand, they are affected by what you've said. It makes them angry and upset with you. Although you always felt that there is no point of always taking things so hard and remembering each and single details, you have in fact forgotten one point - this is exactly how many people on earth actually behaves. They simply likes to take note of every little detail that is sharp to their ears. They never remember the good things, they remember the bad.

You'll never know what people is saying behind your back

This is the way everyone is. No matter how upright one can be, they'll still gossip. If not, they would have become saints or rise to the heaven. I believe most of the time when people gossip, they'll say bad things about you. Hardly ever will they praise you behind your back, unless they are way too bored. I think it is almost human nature to talk bad about people, what differs is the extent of talking bad. You'll never how bad is this particular person is speaking bad about you, or how bad that particular have an impression about you by now. Even people who usually close their mouth shut have a brand new perspective about you, that is how bad things can be.

I used to think that by telling you is helping you. But the more I say and the more you defend for yourself during the conversation makes me irritated. Telling you in hope that you'll change but nothing seems to be working. You would still prefer to think that how you're reacting is professionalism and how I am behaving is being childish or silly - like the entire world's perspective is wrong and you're right. I could only say that you might be thinking that you're being professional by saying certain things. But when the whole entire norm don't believe in being professional or they don't act professionally, you seem to be a joke to them. A big fat joke.